Not having

Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning.
I feel like the world is dying
Right in front of me, crying
For my help, but I can’t stop falling
And my throat is clogging
And my head is blazing
With so much thinking
And my heart is brimming
With so, so much feeling
And I begin believing
In some bad things, reaching
A point where I’m screeching
Inside, my heart is going
But I’m forced to keep staying
I want to run but I’m failing
And at these times a voice is screaming
The only thing that I’m assimilating:
Start writing.



There is something wrong.
I don’t know exactly what.
There is a heaviness in my tongue,
Something lurking in the dark.

The exhaustion in my bones
Make me think I can’t even stand.
Right now I can’t be strong,
I can’t really think of any plan.

The days go on through me,
Unknown people in the crowd,
That I can’t notice for the life of me.
No one makes me turn around.

I’m trying so hard just to stay awake…
The clouds surround me in my mind…
My swimming vision is what I can’t take
But I can clearly see something is not right.

Close my eyes
Hush now
Everything has stopped somehow

Be still and will
Your mind to travel back

Remember the time
When we were fine
When every dream came true

When our fears were not so strong
When our eyes
Still filled with song…

I walk around the room
And I can see them clearly
All the people all the dreams
And all the pain are blurring
Every single step I’ve taken
Suddenly burning
With fire like a ruby
Everything is turning

Maybe I was quiet and shy
And feared a lot of things
But I am going to share and
Make them see my dreams
Cause all the pieces fit like a puzzle
And I’m done trying not to scream
At every single injustice I can see on the screen

Stop time
Just for a minute
Let them shine
The past and the riddles
Long solved and gone

May we revel
In those victories

Our paths are in the making
And we can’t see where they are ending
But we can control the way they’re taking
Us to where we have to start breaking
The walls that have been chasing
Us from the beginning.

i wanna see you today

falling leaves on my window
the sun is shining again
the night was dark but now
i can finally say it’s gone

an attempt at being normal
made me discover you
and after taking the chance
i don’t care what we’ll go through

i’m scared shitless of what’s coming
of screwing everything up
i’m scared of getting hurt
you know the fears of my heart

the dark night existed and it haunts
even in the sun there’s a shade
but as long as you’re with me
everything else seems to fade

so i wanna see you today
i wanna kiss you everyday
i’m not running away
’cause you make me want to stay.

Don’t worry

Instead of reassuring yourself that nothing will happen, have the mindset that “whatever happens, I’ll be fine”.

Even if you worry that bad things are coming, create a mechanism to guarantee that you’ll be okay, like figuring out which friends are really supportive and which aren’t, knowing that you can reach out to your family, or just trusting fate. Face the challenges with a serene heart and the knowledge that time can heal anything, so just wait and hope. And be fine.

This is the true strength.