There is something wrong.
I don’t know exactly what.
There is a heaviness in my tongue,
Something lurking in the dark.
The exhaustion in my bones
Make me think I can’t even stand.
Right now I can’t be strong,
I can’t really think of any plan.
The days go on through me,
Unknown people in the crowd,
That I can’t notice for the life of me.
No one makes me turn around.
I’m trying so hard just to stay awake…
The clouds surround me in my mind…
My swimming vision is what I can’t take
But I can clearly see something is not right.
I can see your tired eyes
I can see your defeated demeanor
But I can see you are ready to try
To fight again with even more strength
And I know you are focused
Walking on your own two feet
But just know my hand is in yours
Know I am watching over you
Know my steps are connected to yours
Know my eyes are facing the same direction
Know I am here, a constant presence
And I will never leave you.
I’m not a normal person anymore
I’m not just a girl
I’m not someone who is waiting
I’m not as dumb as I thought
I’m capable of so much more
And this moment translates this
Bathing my soul in stars
I reclaim the prize
I’m looking through the bus’ window
The traffic is frozen in time
I’m lost in thought while the people around me
Converse with one another
I’m listening to the sounds of my soul
The notes of my heart drum in my ears
Everything I am
Is still unknown to myself
I’m diving in trying to find any kind of light
I want to dress myself up in stars
And travel through the galaxies
Touching the sparkles
And they won’t burn me.
I love your hands in my arms
In my back
In my hair
Your lips on mine
You can make me feel so safe
And so adventurous at the same time
I want to cross the ocean for you
We are so different
I love to rip your buttons out
I love scratching your back
Making sure you’re mine
And I’m yours.
in the dark, you ask to see
but it seems like no one can
hear your desperate plea
so you want to give up
but there’s so many things
to consider so you can’t
let it go, you have to keep
running even if you can’t
see where you are going
just have faith that you will find
put your headphones on and ignore
the rest, just keep moving
forward without stopping
handle this weight like a
champion did once in the past
hold it like no one else can
for you, like you are protecting
innocents from having to do so
so keep putting one foot in front
of the other, in the dark
you asked to see but actually
you should ask for strength
to keep going.
too much expectation
i don’t care anymore, i’ve been
weighted down one too many times
by those guilt filling eyes
so i’m gonna take my stuff
and i’m gonna gather my courage
to finally leave this place behind
to by my own rules live my life
i no longer care about what you think
because this is me, this is who i am
if you don’t like it, better leave
you wouldn’t change for me either
so the reason i’m leaving is this
my heart was broken and shattered
because i was trying to please
but none of that ever mattered
not to you, no, never even did
all you cared for was for someone
to fix you, but i’m broken myself
so i’m gonna put a stop to this.