picture

the dots in the corner

coloring the frame

it’s a wide space

where people never go

never stay

for long

for some reason i earn for the mountains

covered in frozen teardrops

that fell from the sky

it’s so unrealistic

and it has nothing to do with me

the dying white

of a place i’ve never been

but still my veins beat

and i dream.

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Spiraling out of control

What should I do?
What should I aim for?
I hate it
I love it
The uncertainty
The call
Is lulling me
Into sleep deprived thoughts
Should I emerge out of these illusions?
So many roads
And so many sins I need to
Atone for
Humility is a challenge
So I continue weeping
Waiting for someone to find me
Waiting for the apology
That will never come
We all have our heavy crosses
But still we go on
And I can’t stop now that I’ve begun
So feel the water run its course
And move on
Even if your track
Spirals out
Of
Control
…?

give me an illusion

why oh why did i
let myself be
so vulnerable
why did it have to be this way
any words you say
an ice cold knife
why can’t you just
believe in us
feed me a lie
just once in my life
i wanted to believe
everything would be fine
i never asked for this
if i was alone
i wouldn’t hesitate to run
but you’re in my bones
in all i do and see
so can you please be gentle
and tell me we’re gonna
be together forever
i can’t bear the thought
of us apart
i would survive
but i wouldn’t live
i hadn’t realized
until now just how much
i care
i ache
to tell me you love me now
is not enought
it doesn’t make it hurt less
if i fell would you leave me
completely alone?
couldn’t you at least try?
i know who you are
but this lack of faith
is like a knife stabbing
through my heart
i never realised
i was this weak
so please just tell me
it’s going to be okay.